Fly away

If I had wings,
I would fly, way up high
above the sky.
I'd see beautiful things,
and leave the world behind
but most of all,
I would have peace in my mind.

by Shellie S.

A little help please

What's going on in my mind?

Well I know I need some help, so I'm seeking it in the form pill shaped people with Rx written on their bodies. I hope they can talk some sense into me.

Let me throw in a random quote because my mind is drawing a blank right now.

Life is like a wild tiger. You can either lie down and let in lay it’s paw on your head or sit on it’s back and ride it

I feel like I've ridden the tiger, fell off and hit my head hard against a rock.

Back to Reality...

Mania is like the never ending flight. But once reality kicks in you start to doubt yourself and if you could even fly in the first place...

Do I really need a cape? Is pink my colour? How about red, would a red cape be more superhero-like? Soon after you realise you need to land eventually.

But what is it like when you are up there with not a care in the world?

Mania and hypomania to some degree (in my experience) can be likened to losing the 'reasoning' part of your brain. You know, the part that says, you can't really afford that diamond studded cape, or [insert expensive desired item here]. When my mania hit, 'reasoning' was gone and through the descent I began acting purely on 'impulses'. Anything that would usually get filtered by my brain, was gone. For me it was the thoughts in my head that say 'don't do that, don't say that'. To be honest, most the time, it felt great. But in hindsight, when recalling all the things I'd said and done, not so good. In this case memory loss is a saviour.

When You're High

Today I thought I'd share one of my super powers. I can fly, I don't even look where I'm headed. Head down, arms foward, ploughing endlessly through the mist.


I could stay up there for days, no need for sleep. From here the view is so clear, you can see everything.

2 days later: Stopped flying, cape a bit damp from the clouds yet faded from excessive sun exposure. Perplexed.

To Do: Make new cape (perhaps from water resistant material) and fly again.

Bipolar Girl

Welcome, this is me, Bipolar Girl. I have a pink cape, it looks good. I'm hungry.

5 minutes later: I found some garlic dip. Now I am Garlic Girl. How quickly things change!

Small Steps

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step"

Lao Tzu

I have decided to take that step by posting this entry.


So forth comes Girl with Bipolar. Personally, I prefer Bipolar Girl it's more catchy, and it sounds like she could have some superpowers.

So, is this the birth of Bipolar Girl?
It's just me. Female. Yellow. Simple.