Psychiatrists

I don't like them, they don't like me.

I'm sick of it. Sick of being in hospital. Sick of having limited freedom. Sick of sleeping just to pass the time. I'm going insane with boredom.

Sure when I get out, I'll probably look back on these times and think, hey doing nothing ain't too bad. They want me to take a CTO - so what the fuck is a CTO you ask (Community Treatment Order)? Basically they (the Doctor) ensure that I am compliant with medications when I am not in hospital. Yes, they can make you take medications you don't want to take, so you take them until the CTO is removed... it can be up to 12 months. It's like being force fed something (typically I wouldn't mind if it were food, but this is pills we're talking about).

There is nothing 'wrong' with me. Everything is 'right' finally and this is what I get thrashed upon me. The more you try to convince people you are okay the more crazy they think you are.

My doctor is an idiot. She's new to the whole thing and she's just trying to cover her own stinking ass. Have some guts woman and see what is right in front of you.