Am I selfish for thinking people want to understand what I'm going through? There is enough going on in other people's lives. Does worrying about someone else become a burden? Don't worry for me - it might be a bit presumptuous to assume you are and a bit self loathing to suggest you're not - I'm perfectly fine. Frustrated, angry, annoyed... but fine. I have my health, and still I'm grasping onto my sanity.
Spiritual Emergence. I think I've experienced this in tie with my 'manic' episode. I spoke to Gini and she said not everyone who goes through Enlightenment goes through mania, so there is a small percentage of people who have both. There is a fine line between the experience of mania and Enlightenment. Who is to say I've experienced one and not the other.
I'll be in hospital for a little while yet, I have to reframe my view on my stay there. However, reluctantly, I acknowledge now I was manic. It's all so overwhelming. But I didn't need hospitalisation and I still don't need it, but that's where I am at the moment. I have to get out of this place.
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